So today started off beautifully. I did wake up with a headache but I didn't let that get me down. I found out when bible study was and we watched this video about Revelations 20. It was pretty deep and raw. It was a pastor who was talking. I have to be honest, I've never actaully heard a sermon on Revelations. People have no idea what the end of the world is going to be like. And this guy was just talking about judgement. I understand getting at the level of the other person to reach them; I try to live that. But won't they be ticked when here comes the end of the world and they are standing before judgement and no one told them anything but the waterd-down, sugar coated version of the Gospel? Even most Christians arn't fully aware of what that's going to be like; I know I'm not. Just a thought that made me think, lol.
But today was gorgeous. Filled with tanning (btw, I'm starting to get red in some areas- aaah! lol), starbucks, finding my favorite relient k cd that I thought I had lost, and blasting it up in my room. It just felt like a perfect day for relient k and singing about sadie hawkins dances. And a bit of headbanging, which didn't help my headache, but left me laughing just at the thought of headbanging making my head hurt more. (: Today was just gorgeous and I kept my tounge in check. Even with a headache, I kept from continuing fights with my sister that could have turned into more. I can honestly say I did good in that area, not in a prideful kind of way, but in a, hey, I actually made an effort to show love. I even offered to make everyone a sandwich. Even when bickering started and she misunderstood me asking her to take the dog out because I was making a sandwich and I had a headache into "I'm ordering you to take the dog out because I'm your older sister and I want to act like your mom and tell you all that needs to be done." and before she started getting all her guards and weapons up and out, I took a breath, migraine pouding (sadly the headaches of the morning didn't go away) and tried to be as calm as I could. I was just genuinly proud of myself, of letting myself and the fussing I wanted to let out turn into what God wanted me to do. Because frankly, I'm the one that carries on most of the fights. I'm not comming into this saying, "oh how great am I." But I'm genuinly meaning that I hold a lot of the responsibility in the fights and I kept my cool today, which is awesome for me.
And, I'm eating healthier. It's making me feel great. I ate a bowl of cereal for breakfast, a apple during lunch time (I wasn't really hungry.) and a sandwich with lettuce and turkey (on wheat bread! I found that to be surprisingly good) with a cheesestick and pretzels for a late late lunch. It's just making me feel so much better. Especially with weightlifting, even if we havn't ran the mile but once and I dread the idea of it. The fact that I'm excercising and I feel more energized is such a great feeling. I'm more active with Kenzie and Taylor when I'm over there. I remember in the beginning of the year when they wanted to play outside I'd make up so many excuses as why I couldn't. Now, I have so much more energy, I love being a bit more active and playing with them outside. I'm so glad I didn't decide to drop the class. The first, I'd say, good three to four weeks I experienced more pain than I have ever experienced in my life. I hurted in places I never dreamed of hurting, and every movement brought on a different source of pain. But I just feel so much better about msyelf now, health wise. I don't mind taking the dog out anymore, a simple chore that I remember dreading every time I had to do it. I just feel great! :)
SAT is freaking me out though. I want to be able to take two but I think I waited too long. I think I'll have to wait till the fall to take my second one. I just figured, in the beginning of the year when everyone was taking it, that I'd wait till I started a english class because I figured it would help me with vocabulary. I'm taking it in May. I really really really hope I do well on it.
Tonight I shall be doing my homework. Bleh, lol, but I'll be doing it.
I pray for more days like this. Even today wasn't the greatest. It had a bunch of crap in it like every other day. But I handled it much better, and because of that, I had a different outlook on it. It made me look at it in a different way and realize that life isn't guarenteed with perfect days. There will never be a perfect day. But it is in the way you handle it that is key. It is in your outlook that makes the day the way it is. It is in what you let yourself think, negative or positive, that determines how you feel at the end of the day. I just pray I'll be able to handle days like this the way I took on today.
And, my migraine is gone! :D
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