I've been thinking, over-thinking.

No more over-thinking. I don't want gray hair by the time I'm twenty and wrinkles from being lost in thought. Someone I know is the type that doesn't like deep stuff to over-crowd her mind and she wants to have fun, and more of it. Part of me, has in the past, thought that shallow. And maybe, part of it is, just because of age. Although, I think I could learn a lot from it. The whole, "I want friendships that are raw..etc etc etc." It would do me a whole lot more good to stop thinking about that thought and just live. Just have them. If there is an area that needs fixing, fix it. And then, have fun. Find the areas that need help, get counsel about how to fix it best, read the Bible, search for what God wants, then fix it.

How can God use me when I keep getting stuck in the places I've been before? Or when I waist time over-analyzing and don't move myself to action? I heard a speaker say before something like, "God can't use you if you stay in your problems, or go back to them. He makes it so we can fix them and then leave them, for good. So we can focus on His will, and not get caught up in ourselves." Ok, so I have no idea if he said ALL of that, but I kinda played it up. haha.

I'm completely happy with my friendships right now. I have a genuinely true friend that I can go to with whatever and more great friends that I know will be there for me and have been before. I want to get closer to some, so that's what I'll work on. With some, I never know what to say, but that's what I'll work on. I feel like with guy friends I'm completely honorable, and that in itself, is a breath of fresh air. I love those kinds of friendships. I still feel like my relationship with my family could be so much better, especially with my sister. We snap at each other a LOT and can't seem to get along for more than two seconds. Ah, and it's both of us being selfish, which I need to work on. Waay too much pride. :(

But life is about living. I want to have fun with it, and that's what I plan on doing. Though, this is not to say that I forget the seriousness of what I'm called to do while I'm here. That, will always be on my mind. But living, truly living, will make that come out. That's a part of me; it will be a part of me when I live with love and life in my veins. And if I enjoy life and that shows to EVERYONE around me, that will come out. It's like a breath of spring air, like a beautiful day where the weather is perfect and you have friends around you, and you can feel the love in the clouds and in the trees. It's like a Florida sky on a beautiful day. (:

Hey, you, yeah you reading this. I want to be a better friend to you.
Let's hang out. (:


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You know what I JUST thought about?!?
The word enjoy.
en joy.
in joy.

So I'm gonna be in joy about life while I enjoy it. (: