Stir stir, move move, breathe breathe.

This morning I went to Bible Study. We went around the town of Clayton and talked to people. I didn't talk as much as I would like to, but I think I learned the way I best wittness to people. I can't just walk up to someone and be like, "Hey yo, are you a Christian and do you know where you'll be when you die?" I mean, there are times when I may be led to do that but, normally I have to start the conversation another way and ease into it. It's not like I have to know them for years before I talk to them about Christ, but I must begin the conversation a different way. Though, you gotta listen to the Spirit telling you those things. I would love to get to a point where I can walk into a place and God would tell me exactly who I needed to talk to and what to say, and the thing I say be exactly what the person needs to hear, all for God's Glory. Not me being 'oh so cool' but God getting all the Glory for that. I just feel that it's more personal and more in a loving way bringing it up in a conversation. Though, that doesn't mean I will butter it up. The Gospel is the Gospel and it will offend people. It will. Jesus offended people. The Apostles offended people. If we are speaking the true Gospel we will offend people. I think the worst thing I could ever do as a Christian is water down the core of Christianity just to reach more people. People won't know what they are called to do if they don't know how to be disciples for Christ. This is all that has been going through my heart recently.

God has been speaking to me a lot more. Through people mostly. The guy that is the founder and maker of this ministry called unfufilled was at bible study. He talked a lot the whole morning and little things he said were exaclty what I needed to hear or relating to what I was going through.

I want a shovel, not a feather. Talk to me about it. I'll try to explain.

I know for a fact that life is not easy when I know what He wants me to do, and then actually going and doing it. There is a difference between knowing and doing. I'm realizing that more and more lately as I let God stir my heart. It's not easy to go up to people and tell them about Christ. It's even harder to tell friends about Christ, for some reason. It's not easy to get out of your comfort zone. It's not easy to confront a Christian friend about something going on in their life that you know is not right. It's not easy to go up to people who label themselves 'Christian' and who do not act like it and be like, even in a loving way, 'what you are doing is not right.' There have been so many times where I've felt like doing that, but chicken out. It's not easy to try to be a better sister and daughter. It's not easy to go against flesh and lay down your life and what you want daily. It's not easy to bite your toungue. It's pretty much not "pretty pretty" being a Disciple. It's sometimes 'pretty pretty' to be a Christian, but it's not 'pretty pretty' to be a Disciple. It's worth it because Christ is in you and you will be living a radical life for Him, but it's not easy. I want my life to be like that. God's stirring my heart. I'm just waiting for Him.