Where You lead, I will follow. Where You lead, I will go.

Do you ever feel torn? Like you are not sure which way to turn? The more you think about it and the more your brain raps around every aspect of it the more you just aren't sure. But I've realized -

I'm a smart girl. I'm not easily swayed and I don't do things because of feelings. I take it and breathe it all in for everything that it's worth and I try to breathe out my response to it. I love people. But I don't make my choices because of people. I can't make my choices because of people. I can get changed and feel something everywhere I go. But I don't make my choices because of just feelings. I pray for insight. To what God wants. I don't talk bad about anything in a way that would lead them to think negatively, though I may say my concerns. I don't lead other people to think negatively one way or the other. Or perhaps, I have not done these things.

I am praying for wisdom right now. I have love, I have so much love for everyone. I am praying that God would lead me to Himself. Because that's all that matters. It only matters that I am growing and constantly being shaped by Him always. And I can't rely on a place to do it. I have to keep that in mind. Me constantly growing and me getting Revelations, no matter how big or how small, comes from me reading His Word and constantly seeking Him. No decision could ever be made, in my whole life, without those things.

I want to be challenged, but I must challenge myself. Though it is good to be challenged where you seek to learn. I have to keep those in mind as well.

I want all of me out. I'm working on it even now. Being sweeter to my family. I'm trying. I want Christ to fill me completely. I want to be drawn to Him. I want more of Him and less of me. This is where my heart is right now. It's no where else. This is where it is and this is where it will stay until I hear His voice. Until he pulls the reins that guide me one way or the other. Until I feel the bit in my mouth moving left or right.

"Draw me to my knees
Lord, I lay me down.
Rid me of myself
I belong to YOU (and You alone.)
Draw me to You."


This is my heart
Humble and open
Take me as you find me
It's not always pretty
But I'll guarantee, it's honest.
Me is all I can give.


I will die to me
And live in You.