Tuesday I went to Wrightsville Beach with some people from my bible study and other people. It was pretty sweet. After lunch and chill time in the ocean, we split up into two groups to go give out water and talk to people. I went with Shaun and this girl named Annie who's going to be Emily's roommate at college in the fall. Most of the people had water (go figure, going to the beach with something to drink. lol.) Then we came to this British guy. He was pretty easy going and chill and willing to talk. He was a scientist and was really well informed about what he believed. He felt that Religion was too open ended and people only came to it when they were hurting or going through things. He seemed to be the type of guy that was happy with his life and didn't want to change it. I barely opened my mouth because I knew this was way over my head of knowledge. Shaun's good at that stuff, he's studied it. There was times when that guy looked me square in the face and asked me questions that I didn't know the answers to. It freaked me out because I know I looked like a helpless girl who didn't know about the thing she believed in and it looked like she was just clinging to it. That's not good.

Give me a verse and I'll write a whole page about it, ask me how to stay on the right track for God and I'll explain it in too many words. But as for apologetics, I don't know as much as I would like. I really want to learn about the apologetics. Especially if I'm going to witness. I don't feel like I can do that as of now because of the lack of knowledge I have. I'm just being realistic. People want to be able to have a good conversation with someone and have the other person be well-informed with what they know. We came to about 5 college kids who were a wee bit tipsy or more, lol. I talked to this one girl who had grown up in the Christian faith. She used to be crazy for God, she even told me that there is no high like being in the presence of God. She can't believe that she isn't dead because of half the things she's done. She knows God wants her back, she even had a dream that she was going to go to some beach/music party and God was telling her not to and to come back to him because she wants to live her life her way. She knows it would be so much better if she didn't do the party thing, but she can't shake it. I told her that God must have great plans for her if He's not letting her go. I got her e-mail and I'm going to send her some bible verses and encouragement.

It was kinda like God was answering my heart prayer through meeting her. We had just gotten done talking to that guy and I was kinda at a low because of my lack of apologetic knowledge. And then we meet them, and I talk to her and it just felt good to be able to talk to her even if I didn't have all the answers. Maybe God used me to help get her to start thinking and the juices to start flowing in her head about God and if what she's doing is really fufilling enough. Shaun and this other guy Eric was talking to the other guys and girl. The one girl said at the end how she was glad that she talked to them because it's good to have someone that is well informed with what they believe. That's why I knew that I needed to be more well-informed about the apologetics. And I'm not sure if straight up walking around talking to people is the wisest thing for me to do at the moment. I'm not sure. But it was a growing experience, for sure. One lady gave us $5.00 because she was so thankful that we were doing it. I still have tons of tracks and bibles so I'm going to keep them in my purse to just have available next time God gives me a nudge. It's a pretty sweet thing, ministry.