I like to spin. It's weird and I don't do it as much as I used to. But I do, anywhere I'm at, while I'm just walking down a hallway or with friends. (the hallway thing is a tad weird, I'd have to say.) I also walk backwards, it's fun but I deff. get odd looks. :D Music, mm, I love it. I agree with Rachel's screamo and headbangin', I feel oddly attached to it even if I'm not the fondest of it.* I love Christian anything, Christian everything, but not the only thing. Especially guy voices singing, like Jeremy Camp. He has such a soothing voice that I just fall in love with. I love Crowder and Phil Whickham and people like that. I've slowly been listening to softer music, not extremely soft, but like camp and crowder and whickham type stuff. In the middle of worship I sometimes stop singing the repetition of words and I just start breathing it. I love doing that. Just worshiping him, if it's just saying words of Glory and honor to him under your breath that may have the world to do with what the song has to do with or it has nothing to do with it. I love being outside, though I'm super picky about the weather. I have a hammock outside and during the spring time I just LOVE going out there and doing my homework on it or just even laying on it. I love clouds. They are my favorite. Not in the 'what kind of picture can I find with them' but in the adoring kind of way. The way the white fluffiness hits the baby blue just right and when you focus on them and you can see that they are moving and it's just magnificent. And sunsets - ohh sunsets. I love Florida. I could get lost in the Florida sky. I could live there, maybe, that's if it doesn't burn up and get swallowed by water because of glaciers melting due to Global Warming, lol. I love that state. I've always hated the term 'best friends' too. I read this term in a book once and I've always loved it - true friends. I've always hated the term best friends because I've always had the worst experience with 'best friends'. It feels clickesh and it makes people feel left out - at least for me, it did. I normally mess up my words when I'm speaking to you and I sound like a stupid moron, haha. My dad told me once that God could use that weakness and have me overcome it to speak in front of thousands. I laughed. That's why I love to write. I feel like I can so much express myself through words. I love words. I love their meanings and what they can tell you about a person, an experience, or anything. They're like magic to me, even if my vocabulary really is small (english clas will help, it will! :)). And I love to read. Every since I was little and I'd have like 5 books in the car with me and my mom would be like, 'what are you doing?" and I'd be like, 'I'm reading them all, duh mom!" (: It's hard for me to open up to people. My whole self. It's much easier for me to type it, but even then I hold back. I love meeting new people and I sometimes come off over enthused when I first meet them, but I'm not crazy, I swear. (: I love natural highs and I fall asleep when someone plays with my hair. I feel bad for my future husband because I make a weird noice with my fist placed up against my cheek when I'm about to fall asleep (it's like 'yuh-IeeIee-uh' ..lol, sorta) and I talk and kick in my sleep. I want a wedding. I want my future husband, the guy God has purposely picked out for me, just for me. As for now, I'm sometimes nervous around boys that I'm not comfortable with, though some I can just meet and be totally comfortable with, and I come off a bit rough and almost mean when I don't want them to see me vulnerable. I hate that part about me, but I'm working on it. I believe in second chances and I love listening and giving advice when it comes to me. I want to live, to really live. To travel, to experience, to muster up every once of courage in me and be different, make a difference. I want to fall in love, not just with my f. hub but with people. With what God wants. What he wants with my entire life. His mission and his cause. I want to read the bible more and fall in love with who Christ and this God is. Bible class taught me a lot, and made me fall in love with the Old Testament. I love every ounce in it. I love how the people wrote at that time, the humor they used. That's what makes me feel like I'm starting to be really interested in cultures. In exploring those cultures and experiencing them. I've always felt like God has wanted me to go to Thailand. For whatever reason, I have. i have no idea why and how I'm getting there because foreign foods make me sick, so God will have to make a miracle happen in that area. But more than anything, I want to come to the place in my life where I'm like, "Ok God, enough with what I want, what do YOU want?! How are YOU today?" I want to care for people, I want to care about the person that is dieing every 8ish seconds, care for them with my whole body, with my whole being. Have myself ache in knowing that they are out there, about to die, and in need of someone to just take the time to talk to them. I want to grasp that, and live it. I want my life to make a difference, so much so that it makes me almost break down in tears at these thoughts.
*haha, I still like some screamo - like Disciple and headbangin' at concerts is fun, but I'm talking the 'you can't understand a word they're saying and it sounds like murder'
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