Life - this year. crazy fun. I was asked how my year had been. It's been alright. But I hadn't been living fully, no matter what they say. I've been asked what I've learned. I've learned to trust fully on God. Don't strive - learn, live. Take a step up the mountain, then breathe. Take it in - breathe in God's breath. I've learned that I will never live my life to the fullest unless God is the only thing I'm striving for. The only thing I let lead me. What is this life anyway? What the heck am I doing going through a day like I'll have millions more? What am I doing? I've learned who God is more and more. What is this life if we're not disciples? We are so jaded. Even the ones that seem to have it all together. In a bigger sense we all are. The next time you go to bed and wake up is crucial. It's defining. It's not just another day. It's time to open our eyes. I can't fully let out the words for this, I can't fully grasp it myself. It's just...well. I'm going to be point blank. Imagine the world ended tomorrow. Just don't lightly think about it. Contemplate it, be sucked into the thought, truly think about it. Your friends. Hell or not? This life is not about me. I could probably go back and look at past entries where I've said a sentence similiar. It almost feels out of reach. You hear people that are so point blank, so serious about Christ and then you see your life. You see how you've lived, with friends. And it almost feels out of reach to go there. Because you've learned the same thing before. You've said it before. The fire was there before, the same way. But when are we going to honestly stop being jaded? When are we going to open our eyes? When am I? ...This is going way off what was meant for my post, but I guess it's been on my heart a lot more than I knew.
Partly I think this year hasn't been great. Things changed so fast. It feels so different from a year ago. Everything. Not neccisarily bad, because as things change we grow. And I'm growing. Sometimes you don't realize things until it's different. O, life. How you change on us for the better! Even if it dosn't seem like it. To teach us, to grow us, to stir us, to mold us.
2 comments:
hmm... very wise words mi amiga. were you by chance inspired to write this because of the speakers at winterfest?
girl, i would DIE. i would just die. yeah girl it is God's, it is His (: but i sho wouldnt mind if He worked it out like that!
and this post, i've read it twice and still can't think of anything better to say than, yep
<3 para tu
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