1. Liberty is beyond gorgeous. Really. The mountains, the way in the morning the mountains and the sky and the clouds fit just perfectly. The way the landscape and the nature is a breath of fresh air.
2. I've learned that when an idea pops into my head about what I could do with the gifts God has given me or the things I could see myself doing if I grow at others, I push it away. Dismissing it as something I could never do. Like one, is speaking in front of people. It seems like God has been placing ideas in my head that I would never have come up with, and I run away screaming. I say, "Uhm, yeah God, you know me like no other, and you KNOW I could never do anything like that." But I feel, feel it so well that I want to follow His will. And if I don't grab a hold of what he wants from me, I could end up living an unfufilled life where I'm only being average and barely staying on the surface. I have no idea what God wants me to do. Absoulutly none. Whether it be go to Liberty, or some other random college that keeps sending me stuff in the mail, I have no idea. But it feels like it's so crucial and that it was one of my biggest prayers right now - is that I would clearly see God's will for my life.
3. I've noticed that I really don't like people acting like I'm little, even if I'm the one that brings it on. I know that sometimes I say things that are dumb and it seems like I'm on another world sometimes and need to be told what to do, but I've noticed it bugs the mess out of me. Maybe it's one of those things that I need to just let go, but it really bugs me. I'm not dumb, you know? I want to act like a kid sometimes, but I also know when to be serious. That's just not going to be all the time. I guess I didn't realize it was such a sore spot. Idk.
4. A person doesn't just wake up and things are totally in the trash. It starts with little deciscions that were made that lead to it. Casting Crowns said that Saturday night. And it hit me. With all things. With my family, with everything. Every little choice counts. How I deal with a situation counts.
5. I'm still not sure if I want to go to a Christian college because of the way they teach their theology or bible classes. I went to a theology class and I loved it. I did, it was just I was wondering how it would have been taught if someone that wasn't a christian taught it. Or one that taught unbiasedly. Not that I don't want to know how Christians see it, that's crucial, but it makes it more real to me when I have to decide for myself and I have to look at it myself. Maybe that's just the stage I am in my life, I dunno. But I do know that I am deffinitly insterested in that type of stuff.
6. I re-met people, and met people. It was so cool. I love retreats. You get to meet so many people that you didn't even know went to your youth group. And people that do, but you never took the time to get to know them. And the people that you met at camp '04 but didn't even remember!
hm. well it's going on 11:30 and I haven't done my spanish homework yet, or started on my history that was due today. I guess I should get on that..
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Hey Beautiful!
I pray for you every night.
Even though you may be a having a little trouble figuring your life out. Its ok. Because I know with all my heart. And so do you. That God has amazing & wonderful places. He is going to use you in so many ways. Whether it be big ways, or small ways. He will use you. I have told you before and I will tell you again. You may seem quiet. And a little childish and silly. But... You have so much to say. A amazing story tell. And even though you may doubt somethings right now. I can see it in your eyes. That passion is there. And when (not if) when finally comes out. Some people will be shocked. Because they never saw it coming. And many, many will want to hear it. Just keep praying. And trusting God. But don't stress about it. Let go & Let God.
8 The Lord himself will go before you. He will be with you; he will not leave you or forget you. Don't be afraid and don't worry."
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