woah, buddy

"Instead you're so busy seeking everyone's approval, you don't realize you already have his"...
"It is your security in that love that will change you, not your struggle to try and earn it."

-So You Don't Want To Go To Church Anymore - 'Jake Colsen' (Wayne Jacobsen & Dave Coleman)

I'm done getting in this motion of thought where I know what God wants me to do but then this little voice comes into my head that says, "yeah, and then this perons will think this and you'll be accepted by this person, or what if this person thinks this? That might offend this person." I'm tired of that so I'm not going to live in that anymore.


"Accountability is not for those that struggle, Jake, it's for those who succeed."
"But aren't we accountalbe to each other?"
"Where did you get that idea?"
"It's in the Bible, isn't it?"
"Can you show me where?"
...couldn't find one in the Bible, even looked at the concordance but saw that those passages referred to our giving account to God, not to each other.
"All the accountability in Scripture is linked to God, not to other brothers and sisters. When we hold each other accountalbe we are really unsurping God's place. It's why we end up hurting each other so deeply."
....
"We're not changed by the promises we make to God, but by the promises He makes to us."

-So You Don't Want to go to Church Anymore


If we hold each other accountable so much and vise versa, we put ourselves in the place of God and the people that are holding us accountable in the same place. He wants to fix our problems, He doesn't want our friends to try in their best attempt to do it. And while we are putting those problems on our friends, they are sitting there with their own problems to deal with. I have come to think that some accountability is ok, the kind that asks "Are you turning to God in your problems?" "Are you reading the Word?" "What are you reading?" Because those are healthy questions that direct you straight back to God. The problem arrives when you don't go straight to God first. You go to what your friend thinks instead of the only One who can really change you.

The other problem with holding each other accountable so much is the fact that we don't like our faults exposed. So when all that we have to hold us accountable is a person then it ends up being so easy to leave things out. And most of the time people won't push so the whole accountability is at a fault already because you don't want to be THAT honest. And once you feel like you can't be that honest with a person, then you start to think of God as someone you could never go to because if you can't tell a friend your problems then you surely are not good enough to show God your problems. You forget the love that He gave you, regardless of what you have ever done or will ever do, on that cross. So you put him as this guy who sits and just keeps score, tallying up all the wrong you have done. So when you think about all the wrong you've done, you can't go to Him with it. And that's when we start to slide, a lot, and we come crashing down feeling horrible about ourselves because we just are not good enough. So we get back up, but it's only to strive one more time to be good enough. We don't get up because of the fact that God loves us and that He is the one that brought us back up, and that just being His, is enough.

And ID even know if that made a whole lot of sense, but it's like I was talking to me the whole time.

Hebrews 4:13
Nothing in all Creation is hidden from God's sight. Everything is uncovered and laid bare before the eyes of him to whom we must give an account.